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Battling Spiritual Fatigue

As a young woman I struggled with severe health issues.  Sometimes simply walking across the living room would tire me out.  I felt like an old, worn out battery with barely enough juice to make a light bulb flicker.  I simply had no energy left to expend.

Spiritually, there are times where I can feel the same way.  I’m going through the motions of prayer, serving and worship, but it feels empty, lackluster.  It’s as if all of the power of God has been drained away and I’m left alone with simply myself.  And myself feels small, insignificant, and unable to do much of anything, let alone something positive or good.  God’s voice seems very, very distant.  I begin to doubt Him.

There’s a story in Mark 9:14-29 where a worried father brings his son to the disciples to be healed, but they were unable to do so.  Then Jesus arrives.  After sharing more details about his son, the man says to Jesus, “if you can do anything, take pity on us.”

If.  See, he’d been let down.  By his circumstances, by his son’s health, and by religion.  The disciples couldn’t help, after all.  So here he is, talking to the great I Am, the Master of the universe and using the word “if.”  Sadly, I can relate.  If you can help me, God, I think.  If you can make a difference in this situation.  If my life matters to You.  I forget who it is I am standing before.

Yet here is what I love.  Jesus doesn’t chastise or rebuke the father.  He doesn’t roll his eyes with annoyance and walk away.  Instead, He gently and lovingly responds by reminding the dad of what is true: “’If you can?’” said Jesus.  “Everything is possible for one who believes.”

Everything is possible.  Everything.

The man, for his part, immediately responds to the power of God with repentance and humility. “I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!” he cries out.  You see he wants healing for his son.  He doesn’t care how silly or ridiculous he looks.  He’s not concerned with doing things the “right” way, or if he’s doing good.  He’s desperate and he knows something needs to be different in his approach and his response.  And he knows he needs help because he has nothing left to try but faith.

Even with the disciples who had failed very publicly to heal the boy, Jesus was gentle.  “Why couldn’t we drive out the demon?” they asked.  Again, Jesus simply responded with truth.

“This kind can only come out by prayer and fasting.”

There are several reasons why I can sometimes struggle to really hear God’s voice speaking into my life, but at the end of the day I can boil it down to just one word:  unbelief.  I’ve let the fear in my heart and my situation create doubt concerning the Lord’s promises or character.  I’m too focused on myself or others, too important to slow down and listen for God.  I doubt that God really loves me, really has a plan for me, or can really handle my anger and sense of injustice.  The lies that the enemy tells me about myself ring louder in my ears than God’s truth about who and whose I am.  Or I think my sin is immune to His healing touch.  If.  And I’m spiritually drained because of it.

In my moments of struggle and weakness, when the if becomes louder than the everything is possible, I have to make a point of crying out to Jesus for help.  I may need to stay on my knees a little longer, or forgo something to remind myself of who God is and what is true.  I need to take my eyes off of the enemy and fix them firmly on Jesus.  He alone is the author and perfecter of my faith (Hebrews 12:2).

FOR FURTHER THOUGHT How do you get re-energized when you feel spiritually drained?  Or handle the lies of the enemy?  Do you run closer to or away from God?  This week, fight to make space to run to Him, trusting He is bigger than any “if” you can throw His way.  The answer WILL come as you lean into Him.

PRAYER Lord, this life is hard sometimes, even as it is also full of blessing.  When my faith is weak, when the answers seem far away and I can no longer hear Your voice, help me overcome my unbelief, my fear and my doubt.  When I’m in seasons of joy and blessing, remind me to cherish them in my heart in order to lean on them should I face another storm.  Thank You for the breakthroughs I know you have in store for me.  I trust Your timing, Papa.  Always You are good.  Amen. 

BARB LOWNSBURY is an author, entrepreneur, and single mother of three.  She serves as the Executive Director for The Dented Fender ministry.  Follow Barb and The Dented Fender community on Facebook and Instagram.

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