Searching for Significance
Why did I play that way? I guess the list could be long. But at the end of the day, I think each of us want to have a sense of power and significance. We want to know our lives matter, that what we do with our limited time here on earth has made an impact.
What the grown-up version of me has come to understand is that the search for significance in what we do is an illusion, a temporary fix that doesn’t fully satisfy the soul. It tends to come with a constant demand for what’s new and next. Now, I don’t care so much about what I’ve achieved. Yay, I have a list of atta-girls. Don’t we all in one form or another? But my list interests me far less than the difference I can make in someone else’s life. I love getting to give someone the right word at the right time, the hug they didn’t know they needed until they received it, or the wisdom and insight to take that next step forward on their life’s journey. I love empowering others to faithfully step into all that God has called them to be. That brings me deep joy.
Still, even blessing others isn’t the truest source of my significance. Think of the synonyms surrounding that word “significant.” Words like powerful, compelling, momentous, important, rich, eloquent, weighty, and having meaning. I find all of these things and more naturally flow out of my relationship with God. See, my significance comes from knowing the creator of the universe chose me. He didn’t have to. It’s not like heaven and hell were picking sides one day and somehow God got the short end of the stick and had to take me on his team. I was his first choice, his number one draft pick, the one person he most wanted to have on his side. And the amazing thing is so are you. He feels that way about each one of us. How profound is that?! It’s hard to feel like you don’t matter in light of the fact that Jesus literally gave his life to save you. Not just everyone, but you. Specifically YOU.
Nowadays, I don’t dream of making a big splash in this world. Whether I do or don’t doesn’t really matter. What I do dream of is walking closely with God,